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Jun. 30th, 2024 04:38 pm
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Yesterday I spent the day with my friend who lives nextdoor. We went to visit my mom who has been in physical rehab recovering from hip surgery. She's been doing really well and was excited to see both of us. It was nice to see her, too.

After the visit, we went to Willowbrook mall and played at an arcade. I do like games, but to be honest, it was a little boring. We got a seat at the restaurant section and I ordered a S'mores Cheesecake and he a Strawberry Shortcake. I ended up eating most of his since it was better 😅 I also tried a strawberry daiquiri, but the alcoholic content in it was still too strong for me to enjoy it.

After that, we went strolling through the mall. He ended up needing to buy another phone so we could uber to this...place he wanted to take me to, which wasn't open yet, so we went to this other place... that ended up kicking us out. Because they likely thought I was underage 😅

We went back to the mall and headed to the food court. I got sushi, he got his thing. While nibbling, I saw this kid with a Miku Hatsune shirt and complimented them on it; they got all happy and told me they loved anime. Whenever I glanced at them, they were looking at me with a smile which was cute. When my friend came back from outside to fetch me, we both waved and they had the biggest smile. It was cute ♥

Trying to finish up m y soosh, we ended up having to wait for another ride. I terrorized him as we waited, naturally, but before long, we ended up at our final, original intended destination for the day: a "gentleman's club" called Lace.

So hear me out: I originally didn't want to come. I only said yes because I was bored. So this was where we were originally going to head to after seeing my mom, but it was 12 o' clock noon, so obviously it wasn't open yet. Then it finally was, and it took a while before any girls came or dancing happened so it was a little boring.

Two bathroom trips, me terrorizing my neighbor outside on a cig break, and a coca coala later, some girls finally arrived and... xD the first one who came over was pretty cute. She had a very low-cut bra and a very short skirt with a thong, both a pink plaid set. Her skin was so soft and smooth and her lips looked luscious. My friend (J I'll call him) had paid her to pay attention to me... 8D and then bought me two lap dances with her... which were an experience, I suppose. Then he had his turn, and then another girl came by with a slightly more gothic look? and he paid for them both to give me one 😭😭😭 this one rubbed up and down my chest/torso, which I may have enjoyed more if my bobbies didn't feel tender in prep for the monthly visitor 😅😅

We left when I had enough and hung out at my place since he was afraid of his roommate's reaction. He needed more smokes? (dude was smoking multiple times that day...) so the plan was he'd get an uber and come back, but I was asleep when he did lol. I remember waking up to his voice and seeing him in the lit doorway before he moved into my room and took my hand. I held his fingers... it's no significant event, but that memory hangs nicely in my head.

Well... he went home and my ass went back to sleep.

This morning I woke up slightly later than usual, and he actually came over and we hung out for a bit. Sounded like he either might come over again or I would, but I took a 2hr nap a few hours ago and it thundered and it rained not long ago, so probably not. We'll see.

So...

Feb. 13th, 2024 07:15 pm
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There's no real need to update unless I feel like writing - I don't, but I think it'd be a good distraction for right now.

It was my birthday the other day and it was ok. My mom got me a balloon and took me to hibachi for dinner. Everything was soooo good. Yesterday we went to Gencarelli's and I got a bunch of goodies for myself (a red velvet cupcake, baby cheesecake, and cheesecake brownie) and my mom (a creampuff and an oreo cookie brownie). I ate the rest of them today, but I still have to sample the red velvet :0

My grandma called to sing and wish me happy birthday on the phone which was nice! Her voice was full of affection, and I could hear my aunt in the background whoo-ing and interjecting. She's mailing me a card with some kind of check. I'm really grateful for her...

My uncle wished me happy birthday on the phone while we were out, which was nice too. He and my mom have been talking more and we've been too a little. It's nice because it feels like our family is becoming more tight.

I sent a card to one of my friends from the internet the other day. I got a pack of them and wanted to send them to my other homies, but I can't get in touch with most of them because the app we all connect on won't let me rejoin it. :I Some others I messaged on insta but either they don't check the messages there or are busy xD; I'm looking to send out more, with family members and a fb friend in mind. I wonder if the one friend got my card yet...

Well, we still haven't gotten the dishes done and there's still a lot of stuff to throw out. Our microwave got busted so we've been having to order out a lot. I really wish I could pay someone to do the dishes and get the stuff out 'cause I would if I could. I've basically been waiting on my mom hand and foot because she's so disabled anymore, but as on top of things as I am, my ADHD still makes unpleasant tasks like dish washing hard. The place is so messy, that even if you pick it up, there's just more to pick up and more bags left around... as bad as that probably sounds.

I'm happy to report that I've been slimming down more and more and been staying that way! I feel so happy and proud of myself and happy with my figure. Some of my pants and pajama bottoms have gotten super loose on me and fall down if I don't tie them up xD I really think it's the already coffee and chocmilk that does me in... so I'm keeping that stuff to a minimum.

Like last year, we've been having early spring-like weather and even nice days that just about hit 60, but today we had a snowstorm. My mom and I have been doing so many things lately that today feels like a snowday! Feelin' a little restless on such days.

What else can I update about? Hmm... well, SSA apparently decided I wasn't disabled anymore and intended to have my checks halted come March 31st. There was some kind of mix up but it turns out certain papers were meant for me so now we're appealing them and hopefully things will straighten out. I really hope so.

I can't think of what else to say. I'm trying to distract myself from being sucked into negative thoughts. I liked ht because the vrs were pretty helpful distractions. I feel a little lonelier since I can't join up and talk to my friends anymore. I actually got a response from the develop after I complained on the reviews but idk, my outlook's not bright. Whoever replies as the developer has a nice bedside manner, but the support is akin to the cockroach on the wall meme. Goes nowhere.
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It’s crazy to think about where I was some months ago before I met my friends on ht. I was going crazy from isolation and believed I was doomed to be friendless forever. In a way… I still feel kind of feel it because I don’t know how much I’m considered a friend to them, and I don’t know who it’s okay to open up to except maybe one person… I cried typing that lol but it’s people I enjoy talking to, who enjoy talking to me, we all have fun together, so it’s nice..
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I feel happy when someone calls me their friend (and I return the sentiment). Even though I'll feel we're friends on my end, I'm never sure people feel the same unless they say it. 

(Though I am pretty confident the other people in the room feel the same xD)


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Även fast jag såg fram emot den 1, när vi kom dit hade jag inte en bra tid och sen efteråt var resten av min dag inte god heller. Jag hade varit upphetsad att äntligen make it dit och såg fram emot kulet jag brukade ha när jag var ett barn, men när vi var där, medan jag tog en promenad runt, lämnades jag med en ledsen och ensam känsla. Det var coolt att se barn ut med sina vänner och har kul och ute har på sig sina coola kläder men det gjorde mig ledsen eftersom de hade sina vänner att vara med och jag hade inga. Det är en gammal story för mig, att gå till funktioner utan vänner och att bara alltid vara den som är ensam. Det slår annorlunda när du går in i ditt sent 20-tal och du är fortfarande ensam, eftersom det verkligen känns som du kommer vara så för alltid.

Men - jag antar att det inte är nödvändigtvissant sant nu eftersom nu har jag människor jag pratar med online och en vän från verkligt liv som jag kom tillbaka i kontakten med. Det känns trevligt att kunna prata med människor och forma en konnektion.

Jag ska inte gå in på vad hände i affären eftersom jag redan har pratat om det mycket. Men jag ska säga jag tog en cykeltur i tidigare delen av dagen, jag tror för chokladsirup? och sen bara för en små tur. Natt-ut eventen i min stad verkade upbeat. Det fanns många människor men inte så många som det fanns i min hemstad. Den i min hemstad var så fullt med folk det fick mig irriterad och overwhelmed, särskilt med människor som skulle bump into you och står precis bakom dig =_=; annoying. Men cykelturn var trevlig.

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