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I wish she would just leave. 😤

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I hate that this page has been used for venting so much because originally it's supposed to be for thoughts I'm comfortable sharing + more positive or neutral daily life things, but, I don't... really get to live my life due to my circumstances and it feels like I'm venting so much where it feels like too much to share even though this is a space for me to do that. I actually have another blog that's private that's for the exact purpose of venting and personal inner thoughts/mental illness stuff - I don't know why I just don't go there :/

I guess I could delete the more venty entries, I just don't accidentally want to shove my feelings down because I would do that a lot on tumblr after I felt guilty or embarrassed for expressing negative emotions.

At that, I suppose it's not like anyone is following and paying attention and caring. As nice as it is to be thought about and cared for, it feels more relaxing/soothing not to be on anyone's radar, because then you don't have to worry about judgment or becoming disliked or feeling like/worrying that you're being too much on the other person. I hate all of those feelings.

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I feel like I vent to my aunt too much and it makes me feel bad. I really appreciate her and feel good and safe and happy that I have someone on my side/someone who listens to me and gives me comfort and empathy, I really appreciate it... even though i get scared I'll lose it someday by being too much.. or one of my flaws got the better of me. Or anything really, I guess.