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[lapkaboo]

I hate that my mother will bring up memories where she was the antagonizer and go “oh I cried so much!” as if I was the one at fault for leaving when my feelings were hurt after she bullied me and then tried punishing me for it. It’s a big reminder that she’ll never care about my feelings and we’ll never have a good relationship and I’m left feeling extremely hurt inside because I can’t approach it because she’ll just shut me down and act like it was both sides even though it wasn’t. (Or yell and make it seem like she was right to treat me like shit because I’m [projection/insult here] or “it didn’t happen that way”.) I was 19 at the time too so I wasn’t a child that needed to be watched over when I left because of the intense pain I felt  from her psych abuse. Fucking evil woman.

Anyway, now I’m upset when I was feeling fine before and why do you do this to me.