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[lapkaboo]

I feel bad because I know my aunt is just trying...em, to give her idea of the situation and support me too but I feel upset because it just seems like a dismissal towards my mom as if it's just meds-related and not that she's in any real condition that keeps getting worse. And... my mom ideally didn't want to go back on pain meds, but the pain from the healing process is severe and she already suffers with chronic pain; the regular, weaker medicine wasn't working so it can't be helped that she needs pain meds and now for her stomach that keeps getting worse over the week. She's sick and something is wrong that the stupid fucking hospital is too incompetent to apparently figure out. It's not the first time the hospital's sent her home when she's had severe infections either. I don't want my mom to get sicker or die.

If my mom were just looking for meds, she'd tell me since she uses me as her own personal whisper box. Which I don't like...at all...but what's happening to her is real. People w chronic pain don't deserve to have their pain and unwellness blamed on ~aDiCcTiOn~ even though it's just that their bodies get used to it to the drugs, not that they're people who want to get high  ._.