兎の日記

It is so hard for me to weed people out of my mind. I start missing them and thinking about how it could be- then the fights and the narc shit returns to mind, trapping me in an endless loop where I try to defend myself. I already get stuck in loops like that (and I have paxil to thank for pulling me out). I realize it's pointless to think about, but like he drew me into a circle over and over, I also get drawn into such mental repetitions. It's truly bothersome.

(That said, I did take my paxil today. I've been taking it first thing when I get up.)