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Update...?
Nov. 19th, 2023 07:24 pmSo, I took my new anti anxiety medication for the first time today. I wanted to take it at 9, but I took it at 8:30 because I felt like passing out. (I couldn't go back to sleep from earlier).
I've been having a really shitty time trying to sleep lately. Half is I can't get comfortable, half my mind is active. The benadryl makes me tired but it doesn't calm me. I guess she can't give me medicine that calms me because it would interfere with the paxil. That's understandable, but it sucks when you think about how long it's going to take to have an effect. ;_;
Well... what can I update about that isn't negative? We've been getting the pepperidge farm cakes lately, which is to die for. I LOVE the chocolate fudge one. I... keep eating it. Last week I finished it off in two days >.> I think I'll probably get sick of it soon, but I'm trying to slow down on the amount of sugar I consume. I'm also making an effort to eat more apples. (Honeycrisp is so good!)
Since coffee has been making me tired lately, I've decided to hold off from it for two weeks. That means I'll get to drink it again on dec 1st and hopefully by then, it will start making me energetic and in a good mood again.
( Hmm )
Today is not as bad a day as yesterday. Yesterday was horrible. However, I'm drifting a lot today and I had trouble sleeping after I took the meds, like I talked about.
I feel like because of my sleep, the days are all blending into each other. They feel short because of when and how I wake/go to sleep, but the sun is setting towards 5 and that sucks. It's too cold to go out, so I try to go out on nice days. I've been forgetting about the park, I should try going there more to sit on the swings and imaginate.
Lately I feel like all I'm concerned about is me. I used to be hung up on the state of others, but now I feel like I'm only concerned with mine. I do still care about others, like my mom, and like I feel bad for her, but she's always been unwell. I feel really bad for her especially now but it's stressful and all the time and well, I also close myself off from her because of how she is. I have to...
( Ha )
I've been having a really shitty time trying to sleep lately. Half is I can't get comfortable, half my mind is active. The benadryl makes me tired but it doesn't calm me. I guess she can't give me medicine that calms me because it would interfere with the paxil. That's understandable, but it sucks when you think about how long it's going to take to have an effect. ;_;
Well... what can I update about that isn't negative? We've been getting the pepperidge farm cakes lately, which is to die for. I LOVE the chocolate fudge one. I... keep eating it. Last week I finished it off in two days >.> I think I'll probably get sick of it soon, but I'm trying to slow down on the amount of sugar I consume. I'm also making an effort to eat more apples. (Honeycrisp is so good!)
Since coffee has been making me tired lately, I've decided to hold off from it for two weeks. That means I'll get to drink it again on dec 1st and hopefully by then, it will start making me energetic and in a good mood again.
( Hmm )
Today is not as bad a day as yesterday. Yesterday was horrible. However, I'm drifting a lot today and I had trouble sleeping after I took the meds, like I talked about.
I feel like because of my sleep, the days are all blending into each other. They feel short because of when and how I wake/go to sleep, but the sun is setting towards 5 and that sucks. It's too cold to go out, so I try to go out on nice days. I've been forgetting about the park, I should try going there more to sit on the swings and imaginate.
Lately I feel like all I'm concerned about is me. I used to be hung up on the state of others, but now I feel like I'm only concerned with mine. I do still care about others, like my mom, and like I feel bad for her, but she's always been unwell. I feel really bad for her especially now but it's stressful and all the time and well, I also close myself off from her because of how she is. I have to...
( Ha )
