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I feel like I keep sliding deeper and deeper into depression. It's come back off and on since the drifting got worse, but usually it goes away after a day. It's been staying. I hope it's just PMS that's causing it to appear longer. I get new symptoms every month, before and during.
Because the medicine is so strong, I just want to stay sleeping. And I'll place it on some of this depression too...
I keep thinking about my grandma lately, but I just haven't felt like calling or going over. It's because of the sleep thing. She's 88 and lately I'm realizing she won't be here forever. I feel sad because I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel sad she won't be around someday. I feel sad if she feels sad I haven't come around or called. I'm sorry grandma. It's just hard right now.
I just want to stay asleep. It's boring being awake, it's emotionally draining and mentally tiring because of the illness.
I'm feeling restless suddenly because I'm drinking too much coffee. But it's tasty. I should switch back to chocolate milk. It's delicious.
Because the medicine is so strong, I just want to stay sleeping. And I'll place it on some of this depression too...
I keep thinking about my grandma lately, but I just haven't felt like calling or going over. It's because of the sleep thing. She's 88 and lately I'm realizing she won't be here forever. I feel sad because I feel like I'm running out of time. I feel sad she won't be around someday. I feel sad if she feels sad I haven't come around or called. I'm sorry grandma. It's just hard right now.
I just want to stay asleep. It's boring being awake, it's emotionally draining and mentally tiring because of the illness.
I'm feeling restless suddenly because I'm drinking too much coffee. But it's tasty. I should switch back to chocolate milk. It's delicious.
