lapkaboo | (no subject)

I took a shower at this time of day because I thought it would be safe but I just ended up drifting and then before when I came out and I was over by the sink I drifted into soso and now I'm upset and triggered and can't get it off my mind again, isn't that fun :) I was even listening to music, my favorite songs but that didn't do shit. And inevitably my brain just does not want to come off the thought, it doesn't want me to rest or be peaceful. You know, I'm scared about dying tomorrow but...