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Jag fick jätteupphetsad över nåt kallad "Lunar Faire" vilket min mors vän sa var idag och sen min mor sa var att kommer nån gång denna månad men jag tittade på siddan och inget händer var som helst nära oss .-. så jag följde siddan för aktualiseringar men man, såg jag emot till det :(( Särskilt platsen hon sa skulle hända vid är den gamla Jungle Habitat i West Milford... cool för många anledningar.

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I know I haven't updated about the positive things, but I've been having better days over the past week (or at least since the car ride) and good things are happening. I'm doing more and going out more and it's just been nice. (If anything, I'm posting those good things on twitter and HT. But I should update on here too.)

心はすぐそばに

I keep having the Japanese version of Dekat Di Hati by Ran stuck in my head... it's such a nice song. I first heard a musician named "Bong Chan"? cover it halfway, which I liked, so I sought it out but couldn't find anything. I had a listen to the original which was nice, but then I found the Japanese version 😍 when/if I get better at singing it, I'll post a recording. Well, at least on twitter.

Out to eat, bike ride, and new friend groups.

Yesterday my mom and I went out to eat for the first time in three years. We went to the diner in Wayne where my grandparents liked to go or where the family would go out eating at on occasions. I had my old favorite dish of silver dollar pancakes which were to die for! I also had a pink lemonade and a hot chocolate which, while improved from last time, still wasn't as good as I remember. They didn't have old syrup where the other-flavored (blueberry, strawberry, something else) ones sat at the side, but they had it by smuckers which was pretty darn good. I put half&half in my cocoa to make it less hot and stole a piece of the egg my mom was having lol. I would've gotten dessert but I was pretty full by the fourth or fifth pancake. (My stomach must have shrunk since I couldn't eat much last month 😅)

Even though the prices have gone up, everything we got was only $30. Compared to how much other restaurant or takeout meals have become, and what we got, that's pretty good. At least in my opinion.

Even though we were still there, I was already thinking about what I was going to get next time we go there 😅 (I want to try a chocolate milkshake and the golden pancake... but I might get silverdollars again haha. (I CAN'T WAIT TO EAT KEBABS))

Then afterwards, we went to the store...again... and bought the necessaries, along with snow crab which was on sale B)) we were gonna get it again today but I got my period and mom felt tired so... we're gonna try tomorrow. It was so fucking good

Lately I'm addicted to saying "bestie". First it was "bro" but now it's "bestie".

Yesterday...or actually, the night before, I went for a bike ride because I wanted to drink something other than chocolate milk which was giving mne bubble feelings (I forgot we already had apple juice. it fucking blended into the bg). I still need to get a bigger saddel before I start riding around on it more, but yeah. I went around the time the sun was soon to set and could see the moon in the sky which, while faded looking, looked huge and was fully visible thanks to no clouds. At the QC, I got apple juice, an arizon tea, and a mocha iced coffee by international creamer that I thought looked tasty (spoiler: it wasn't) and left. I decided to take a detour through the back streets of Bloomingdale since I like riding back there. It was becoming blue hour and by the time I got to the crosswalk near the bridge, the sky was deep blue and the moon, almost pink orange, stood glowing in the sky. It felt as if it were watching me as I sped down the street, enjoying the cool breeze on my face. It felt nice, like I wasn't alone.

I was happy to be home because it got hot on the way back. Or at least I felt hot xD

Today, like I was last night around 9, I'm feeling pretty tired. That's obviously a good thing, since it's better for me, and I'd like to go to sleep earlier, but I also don't want to go to bed right now xD I've been waking up so it feels like the day ends quicker, so I end up wanting to stay up later... (I'll try to sleep at least soon)

Well, in a little while I'll probably go in my room and hop on HT. I've been checking it more lately... and even frequenting the voice rooms, which I'm so happy for. I've been talking and practicing a little with others, which is cool because people will be on mic but still talk to you who's using the chat. However, I've even been talking on mic and playing games with others! So far I've found two groups with people I really like chilling and talking with... and they're so nice, too. It's like... the other day I was thinking about how, only in small pockets of time I had friend groups, and thought it would probably never happen again. But look! I've found people! People I'm comfortable with! People who like me! People I'm becoming friends with! It's so nice. Even popping into different rooms, it's nice because it's human interaction. I'm just so grateful and happy.

Anyway. I think I should take some ibuprofen for this headache I'm getting and chill on the dairy. I think I'll definitely sleep soon.