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Entry tags:
- en,
- loneliness,
- longing,
- sad
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I'm in a really shitty mood b/c of what I was drifting about and the fact it happened. My mad is being annoying and I feel sad because I don't have anyone to talk about OCs with or do fun OC memes.
Really, I feel sad and keep feeling sad because there are some cool artists in the JP side of the fandom I really wish I could talk to and make friends with but can't speak good enough Japanese to do so. Then there's someone I've really been wanting to be friends with...actually maybe more but I know it would never happen lol and even if we did become friends, communication would be very limited. It makes me so sad 😠But that doesn't stop me from wanting to send nice messages or even do art for them... or thinking about kissing her... (I probably sound insane - I don't even know what she looks like)
Well, it's been a few hours since I opened this page up and my mood has lifted between getting my brain to shift and the coffee perking me up xD which I think I'll need to try it on stronger brew tomorrow, to get more a flavorful cup. I'm content, though.
Really, I feel sad and keep feeling sad because there are some cool artists in the JP side of the fandom I really wish I could talk to and make friends with but can't speak good enough Japanese to do so. Then there's someone I've really been wanting to be friends with...actually maybe more but I know it would never happen lol and even if we did become friends, communication would be very limited. It makes me so sad 😠But that doesn't stop me from wanting to send nice messages or even do art for them... or thinking about kissing her... (I probably sound insane - I don't even know what she looks like)
Well, it's been a few hours since I opened this page up and my mood has lifted between getting my brain to shift and the coffee perking me up xD which I think I'll need to try it on stronger brew tomorrow, to get more a flavorful cup. I'm content, though.