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I thought the flies were finally gone but I saw one flying around just now and grossly, I think I may have accidentally swallowed one that got into my coffee before ): I felt something hard hit the roof of my mouth as I gulped the coffee down...
I was gonna make chicken today but between that and just not feeling it, I don't want to anymore...
I've been hungry since last night and drinking chocolate milk to fill up. I had a peanutbutter sandwich last night but it sucked and we don't rerally have anything to make. I only have 45? left in my account and stupidly my mom took my card with her so I can't go out and buy or go somewhere to eat. I could order online I suppose but weirdly I feel repulsed by food right now - i hate where I get where I'm hungry but the idea of eating anything repulses me.
Sometimes I wish I would just starve and die. That was sort of my plan when my mom had the comfort meds--just keeping taking them until I die. I wouldn't be conscious for it so that was a big plus.
My grandma called just before but I told her my mental illness has been bad so we didn't talk much.
When I went back to twitter, I got in a pissed off mood again so I'm saving the images I want to keep and then deactivating it. I'm sad that what was originally a nice space for me turned into one of negativiity.
I wish there was a burger king around. I'm always in the mood for burger king.
I started writing self indulgent things but I feel like I can't continue it because I have a block in my brain again. I also feel stressed out because I have stories I need to finish but I can't. I feel stressed out remmeber how many projects I started but can't finish... but yeah, adhd is a "superpower". delulu
I wish I could just go to sleep until I'm not sick anymore.
I was gonna make chicken today but between that and just not feeling it, I don't want to anymore...
I've been hungry since last night and drinking chocolate milk to fill up. I had a peanutbutter sandwich last night but it sucked and we don't rerally have anything to make. I only have 45? left in my account and stupidly my mom took my card with her so I can't go out and buy or go somewhere to eat. I could order online I suppose but weirdly I feel repulsed by food right now - i hate where I get where I'm hungry but the idea of eating anything repulses me.
Sometimes I wish I would just starve and die. That was sort of my plan when my mom had the comfort meds--just keeping taking them until I die. I wouldn't be conscious for it so that was a big plus.
My grandma called just before but I told her my mental illness has been bad so we didn't talk much.
When I went back to twitter, I got in a pissed off mood again so I'm saving the images I want to keep and then deactivating it. I'm sad that what was originally a nice space for me turned into one of negativiity.
I wish there was a burger king around. I'm always in the mood for burger king.
I started writing self indulgent things but I feel like I can't continue it because I have a block in my brain again. I also feel stressed out because I have stories I need to finish but I can't. I feel stressed out remmeber how many projects I started but can't finish... but yeah, adhd is a "superpower". delulu
I wish I could just go to sleep until I'm not sick anymore.