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I knew if I had a milkshake today it wouldn't be good since it causes bubble feelings in my sinuses/ears, but after I got a massage from my mom, for the first time in a long time I have a pressure/air feeling in my throat area that gives me discomfort and nausea, and I'm freaking out because I know as I've cried about it something is wrong with my ears/sinuses and the way air is distributed in my head. Last time I tried to massage it out, a bad shooting pain went through my lungs and my heart area enough to cause me to cry out in pain and be dizzy. It was the worst kind of pain and I still don't know what caused it - when I tried to tell doctors about it, they either were quiet or just looked at me like a weirdo. I really need those xrays...
Why is it when I remark to myself, "thank god I don't have that problem anymore", it comes back? How come before the big day, that kind of problem returns? Why when I do something that I think is good for me, it turns out to be the complete opposite?
--Apart from the milkshake, a small chocolate milk when I first woke up... and then a little of cheap chocolate when we came home... hours ago... why does this happen to me... why is this happening today of all days? I hope it's not present tomorrow...
Why is it when I remark to myself, "thank god I don't have that problem anymore", it comes back? How come before the big day, that kind of problem returns? Why when I do something that I think is good for me, it turns out to be the complete opposite?
--Apart from the milkshake, a small chocolate milk when I first woke up... and then a little of cheap chocolate when we came home... hours ago... why does this happen to me... why is this happening today of all days? I hope it's not present tomorrow...