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[lapkaboo]

It's so hard to have positive thoughts or stay in a good frame of mind when you can't stop thinking the same thing over and over (or you're fine andsuddenly intrusive thoughts appear that you can't stop). You have no one to vent to about it, no one who gets it, people who just coldly react with as little empathy as possible and essentially victim-blame and misrepresent you entirely, you feel like you can't talk about what's bothering you let alone your own experiences on your own page or you're brandishing yourself up a target, you feel alone and hurt and afraid constantly. It's really hard to be everything I am.